This will be the last post I'll be posting I guess.

It's all a dream. I was foolish to think that you will be able to understand me, I was foolish to think you'll understand me. I don't know how long later will you read this. But sorry, I can't be the one. I can't give you happiness.
You asked me why I still be with you even if it was so xinku.
This was my reply: Because I just want to love you and take care of you. I'm someone who doesn't know how to take care of myself and love myself. I'm just someone who thinks negative, cries alot and cut myself. Being with you make me realise how much I wanted to take care of you. How much I wanted to show you my love.
But sorry, my love isn't so big. My love can't last long. I already tried. Everytime it hurts, I hold on for the 5 year promise. I tried everything to make you smile. I asked my friends and your kor. I really did, maybe you didn't realise it, but it kinda hurt to me.
But after everything we gone through, I'm not strong, I can't hold on. This is my limits. I got no other ideas, no other options to make you smile, to give you happiness.
You wanted me to give up meeting terence, I can.
You wanted what, i tried to give it to you.
Then later i realise you can't do it for me. I then realise something i didn't feel for a long time. The feeling of being played. I may have hurt you last year, that's why I try my best not to hurt you this year. But I think this is revenge, that's why now you're hurting me. All well. All the best to you.
Take care. Don't keep knocking into things at night.
Don't wait anymore. Just wake up from this dream ba.
Sorry I fail as a stead.